Getting to face my inner demons today .. All things that scare me in one place, one person .. You.
I can’t sleep can’t eat can’t even drink without getting sick I need to see you there is no better time or place then now. This all perfectly explains why this is happening now but it’s just bad timing because people tend to notice more when I sit on the side lines rather than drink, party, or anything else especially on one of my birthday weekends. This is the lowest point I’ve ever been in and have no choice but to hide it because of all the good things that have been happening to me it wouldn’t make sense not to be happy. You would think shit like this would have hit me when it happened not 10 months later.